I was born in Lakewood California and grew up in Colorado since I was about 4 yrs. old I'm the youngest out of four children. I thought life was the best thing that ever happened too me until my family went out of control. What I mean is my family slowly grew apart from each other. I was always excited when i woke up every morning because i was able to go to school and feel free from being at home . I felt like i was in a trap at home .
School was one of the only things that made me happy. I was always proud when I got good scores on the work I did . Years after my family split from one an- other I was 13 years old when I went into shock from having no family. All I had was my foster mother by my side . She always encouraged me to stay in school when i just wanted to throw my hands up and say I'm done trying ! I remember the moment I first arrived at the foster home .It was dark and very cold ,I was in the middle of no where. All i could see was the white house right in front of me .I walked to the door holding my bags in each hand, nervous about how I was going to be treated .I was really shocked that this woman right in front me was nice to me she invited me into her home and took me around the house and showed me my room and explained the rules she had for the girls in her care.
The first night there was rocky for me. I didn't like feeling alone . Days /months kept going by living in her home, going to school, and chores. Of course there were fun times that she would take us out like Jackson Lake to go swimming . The time I spent there helped me find the real me. At least the person I wanted to become one day. I realized I was always happy and willing too do all I needed to make a better person of myself, and be better than my parents. Living at Tonya's home was worth understanding that my parents at the time were unfit to take care of me and my three siblings .
I will never forget the moments Tonya and I would share staying up really late drinking a few cups of coffee and talking about my future and things. i wanted to achieve in my life , or we would talk relationships and how to have healthy ones. She always told me to always have good relationships and not to wear my heart on myself. I lived with her for about a year and a half. Then I had a court date and the court decided I needed to go back and live with my dad. I was in between being happy and mad. I was happy because I was really close to my dad, but I was mad because I had friends that lived near Tonya's.
When I moved back home things got really ugly. My dad had a new girlfriend and she did not want me there. She was verbally abusive to me always complaining about what I did or didn't do. It caused problems between me and my dad. She would never let me and my dad just hang out alone. At seventeen I decided I was old enough to live on my own and move some place I had never been before. So I ran away to Florida. My dad never tried to find me. Needless to say, life in Florida was not what I thought it would be, partly because I was young and made bad choices and partly because it wasn't really different than when I was at home. The best thing about Florida was I meant my best friend Monica. Then one night Monica decided to borrow an electric wheelchair to go down the street to the store. A white pick up truck was racing a four wheeler. I guess they couldn't see her or maybe they just couldn't stop in time but they hit her and she was dead on impact. The guy just got out of the truck and saw what he had done, got back in his truck and just drove away. To this day the court is still in process.
I stayed in Florida for five months but after Monica's death I decided to come back to Colorado. I wanted to be around my father because he was the only one to stick by my side after all that had happened to me when I was younger. He let me move in with him and I was looking about going back to school to finish and there was a choice between two schools. I chose a school that was willing to help work with me because I was pregnant, I did not choose the other school because I did not want to get bullied for being pregnant at my young age. It went fine for a while until i decided I wanted to just give up .
I stayed out of school for a longtime and the months went by and I was at the point in my life where I was living with friends and then my dad got a new place in New Castle. He rented it right before he drove out to Florida to come and get me. i was happy to be living back with my dad ,but scared because I wanted a job so that I could support my baby. I enrolled into Yampah Teen Parent Program to see if I could finish this year, Well they are helping me tons and I am more than grateful to thank Sally she has been very helpful to me. When i got stressed out with work and my pregnancy pains.
I went to the doctor Monday had my usual visit . I had to go in the next day to get induced . My sister in law Shanna woke up with me at like 4:30 am because we had to be in Glenwood Springs at 6am . The ride there was so cold . I was happy when I got to the birth place because Joe Ball was there . He was a man I knew for almost 7 years. He was my boyfriend waiting to be by my side to be there for my daughter. We walked down the hall to the room I was going to be in until my daughter came . She was born February 22nd at 7:29am. She weighed 7lb. 13.4o.z.