The moment I found out I was Pregnant was when I was living in Jacksonville Florida but the strange thing was that I just had a feeling of being pregnant Then six weeks went by and I was back living with my dad in colorado . I went to the hospital on 4th of july because of a DV case and i was seen by the E.R. That was the offical day i was able to see the youg life growing insdie of me . i cried seen the baby on the screen . i cried because i thought my life was over . i didnt want to have a baby so young . and the doctor that was showing me my baby asked if i wanted to hear the babys heartbeat and i just looked away in tears. hoping she wouldnt let me listen . but nope it was to late ... i hear my childs heartbeat going to dang fast . i didnt want to be attched to my kid .after that day of seeing and hearing a baby that was apart of me i wanted to just disappear . but then i always told myself i was not going to be anything like the lady that gave birth too me . I also wanted to have my life back of doing whatever the heck i wanted when i wanted . i didn't want the responsability of raising a baby and having them depend on me forever . months went by still thinking about what i should do with the child that was growing inside of me . I didn't want the baby until the day i found out i was having a babygirl. i alway thinking to my self since i lost my best friend monica moon , i wanted to name my daughter after her because i lost my friend to a hit and run when i lived in Florida . i was about half way through my pregnancy when i finally accpected me going to be a teen parent. i started to look at things to get my unborn child but would never buy anything . my sisters would give me baby things here and there ,my dad always talking how he is going to take her camping and rafting when she got older . i just would roll my eyes at him . but then thinking to myself "so glad my dad is going to be there for my kid like he was there for me .
i went to the doctor monday had my usual visit . but had to go in the next day to get induced .my sister in law shanna woke up with me at like 4:30 am because we had to be in glenwood springs at 6am . the ride there was so cold . and i was happy when i got to the birth place because joe ball was there . he was a man i known for almost 7 years he was my boyfriend waiting to be by my side to be there for my daughter. we walked down the hall to the room i was going to be in until my daughter came into this world. my family was there for me ,well not the family i wanted to be , i did want my dad there same with my sister in law shanna for the fact she was the only one to really stick by my side . i would always call her for advice on pains i would get or things even others cant think of . they had me change into a hospital gown and then hooked me up to a monitor so they could track my contractions and how the baby was breathing and me. hours went by sitting there with joe and shanna bored out my mind , i couldn't leave the room for the fact i was hooked up to a lot of wires . no one came and saw me that day it was getting dark outside and still no baby.
they uped my pitoecine for the fact i was still not 10 cm and my water didn't brake yet. i ate dinner with shanna because joe went home to shower and rest. we had a good dinner we had dessert too. after we ate i was having contractions really hard but not close enough to really worry about . i was getting ready to sit in a hot bath when my sister came into my room . i was so happy to see her and she came with my little nephew Yerson jr. he came walking to me well to my leg and hugged me and then ran to my sister wanting to get picked up , she asked how i was doing and commented that i was so big with just carrying one baby. well as she said that i got into the tub and my nephew tried to come in with me because he loves taking baths . Amber and i just laughed at him being so silly with me . The bath really didn't help with my contractions so i got out and dryed off and back to being hooked up to the monitor . i started to watch t.v. with my nephew and he fell asleep so amber grabbed him for me and took him home . i was so happen she came to see me . i love that after so many years growing up and only fighting with her , years later she is supporting me having my baby that i didnt want but grew to love and decide to keep to show her a better life then what i had as a baby. i guess the only difference is my daughter wont have a daddy . and i kept my promise to be the best i can and better then the lady i called my mom. well after amber left i was having bad pains again and couldn't sleep so and the pain would hurt more and more no matter what i did . I asked shanna to call in the nurse because i wanted to get the shot that numbs me . so did and right when the doctor was putting that big ass neddle in my back joe walked in the room out of complete surprise. The doctor cleaned up my back from where he put the needle in my spine ,and the nurse helped me back in bed to lay down so that the medicane from the needle would take full effect. I fell asleep for about two hours and then after that was tossing and turning . I woke up felling like i peed myself so i asked the nurse to check and see if it was my water that broke . she grabbed a testing strip too see if it was and it sure was that my water broke in my sleep.
I went back too sleep for a few hours until my ob came into the room and woke me so that she could see how dilated i was .